...and off in her own little world, talking to herself, humming LOUDLY, or quoting MASSIVE chunks of dialogue verbatim from random movies?
See this gorgeous little girl who one minute needs the adrenalin hit...
...and the next needs solitude, rocking herself in the rocking chair or hiding in the dark?
This little girl who 'looks so good though' to so many people and yet who we see slowly slipping away? The little girls
in 'Sulley' (<3)...
...and has gone from just having to have one or two or three or four dummies with her (all to be held in certain positions) to now having to have certain coloured dummies in her collection and having them sit on her bed in a certain way with the teats all facing the same direction?
Do you see this little girl who is so rigid in her play that almost nobody can join in now unless it is on her terms, regardless of how many times we try and explain things to her calmly...
Well, we are fighting right now for this little girl.
I am fighting for her to get appointments to see what we can do to simply help her; speech, occupational therapy, naturopathy and other.
We are reaching out to her and wanting to touch her heart.
We are fighting in every way we know how because she is SO worth the fight!
She may not have autism.
We don't know for sure.
We've been told that it does look like she 'fits somewhere on the spectrum' by practicioners but we are still awaiting official diagnosis.
Any why is that important?
Because to us, it is like we are knocking on a door trying to open it and see if behind it lie tools and strategies to help us reach our sweet daughter.
The 'label' gives us the 'key' to help us open that door.
That's what it did with Liji.
And we believe it will be the same for Zip.
Some people reading this may think I have said too much.
Believe me, I haven't told you even the half of it.
But I say ALL this for one reason only....to raise awareness about WHAT life can be like with a child who has special needs...whether they be a sensitive child, a child on the spectrum with Autism or Aspergers or anxiety.
Please don't judge us as we journey this.
Life's already hard enough.
Despite all I have written, lest you think my life be filled with doom and gloom, please let me reassure you that it isn't!
Sure we face lots of challenges, but who doesn't?
It is also DAILY filled with her cuddles, words and joyous laughter.
She can be such a fun, caring and sweet little girl to be around!
And the best thing we have? Is the knowledge that the One who created our gorgeous Zipster knows ALL the keys to understanding her and helping her understand us.
He also made her perfectly.
He promises us that NEVER will he abandon nor forsake us and we have seen Him prove Himself faithful time and time again.
I am so thankful for His love and grace especially during these darker days.
If you think to pray for us, that would be great.
In the meantime, if this 'desk is unmanned' then you'll know why.
I'm off fighting for my daughter.
More another time,